she wasn’t prepared for this

a bulky letter burst out of the envelope taped over by some postal worker on the continent –

testament and notarial confirmation – peace be with them

RIP Gerhard 2003

RIP Marianne 2016

I thank all the Court admin staff who tracked me down.

Their letters confirm what I knew –

that I am at peace

having had no contact with my parents

since age 20, for more than 45 years.

No need to visit a grave.


I hope I’ll be able to leave with that little fuss in the end.


~ by Barbara S on August 18, 2022.

4 Responses to “she wasn’t prepared for this”

  1. Wow. Why did they contact you now in 2022?

  2. PS my parents will have had a grave process of grieving of their own after I left; however, the evidence around testament I have seen, gives me a sense of closure as they seem to have lived their lives in the end. Most grateful for this process.

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