accountable?
my daily log contains my commitment to take 4 steps daily / commit to /practice
- honesty
- gratitude
- serenity
- centering prayer
and, as they say in AA ‘I may not always adhere to it, but I have it’, the plan that is. Sometimes I have to shake things up, think of something different to do. For a while I made a list of points I am grateful for. Right now I listen to a folksy children’s song from around 1968 that meant a lot to me as an adolescent;
serenity prayer is the core part of the maintenance phase of any 12-step-program
with reflections on each verse, you find it here:
I am not exactly crossing my fingers behind my back when I say it to myself, but I add the caveat – to make sure I don’t list things as unchangeable I CAN do something about, even if not a lot.
But sometimes that may not be enough to avoid slipping into a depressive slump. Today, I had to firmly put myself in the frame of presenting, making present, the one anchor I cannot deny or forget without betraying myself. –
I have in a Court Hearing once referred to a conscientious decision of mine as similar to being under oath – a higher awareness of something that cannot be denied. –
I have lapsed for a while now on the meditation side, for reasons I don’t want to go into. What I do maintain is a 10′ practice of finger yoga (mudras) while watching TV at night. Sometimes I do that twice. At least, that way, I do keep the commitment alive. And at least one zoom meditation meeting per week, my favourite one.
practice of sweeping
the hut – traveller leaves
daily*
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* a Basho-themed haiku
For some time now, I have taken my morning posts here as affirming my commitment to honesty – even if they are short poems and deal with other things, they affirm that I reflect, against the backdrop of my best-can-be.
owl I have missed you
almost today
being quiet

- To put my self reflection in context, please visit my page ‘Living Unconditionally’
Reblogged this on Frank J. Tassone and commented:
#Haiku Happenings #7: Barbara S’ latest #haibun!
Frank J. Tassone said this on July 23, 2021 at 16:16 |
thanks very much for your interest; was just wondering whether I might add a reference to my page ‘Living Unconditionally’ – 🙂
Barbara S said this on July 23, 2021 at 16:17 |
My pleasure, Barbara! I read your page, and I revised my post to add a link (and mention) to it! 😇
Frank J. Tassone said this on July 23, 2021 at 16:25