Emptiness – Feb 2015
I don’t remember where I read of which Zen teacher is quoted as having said – after the Great Zen Experience, you life will be – as it would have been anyway – only with inner freedom.
Yet today seemed one of those days where it all becomes a bit clearer. It seems now, as a child that gentle breath of inner freedom was with me as something I felt locked in, yet held comfortable;
then I grew up (or so I thought) and I attempted to shake it off – did not want to be different any more.
Until, that shell collapsed, and I broke free – to be inside the emptiness.
Yet still, the old layers of armour were around me, impenetrable.
Today, for a while, on my way to Court, I felt suddenly grateful for a difficult role I am filling at the moment, a difficult task I am trying to meet. And yet, there was great clarity and calm at the center…
Later, home, I am wondering whether I have not moved freedom into the Armour now, as I feel, at least temporarily, free in a pervasive sense.
The god-shaped hole within
breathes out,
here I am
I don’t know where the gratitude came from, all I can say, it came not from me.
Barbara S said this on February 24, 2015 at 00:27 |
As for allowing the pervasive emptiness, in my eperience there are lots of attempts necessary before the human system is so worn down from not opening – that it will.
Barbara S said this on February 25, 2015 at 17:50 |
This seems to be at the same time a process of healing and being challenged, deeper than ever.
Barbara S said this on February 25, 2015 at 17:51 |